A beautiful word from R.C. Sproul, Jr., who lost his wife to disease and his daughter with disabilities less than a year apart:
But the thing is, Shannon (his daughter with disabilities) never felt the weight of her weaknesses. And Shannon had a faith that saw through the veil. She lived on earth as if it were heaven. She was so full of love, joyful, peaceful, so filled with patience and kindness, so good, so faithful, so gentle and so self-controlled that she bloomed, bore fruit in God’s own garden. When she woke up able to walk and speak, when she woke to feel our Lord’s hand on her head, it was no great change for her.
He offered these thoughts at his daughter’s memorial service. It is well worth the 24 minutes to watch.
The Works of God 
i WISH i COULD LOVE MY C HILDREN LIKE YOU DO r c i DONT ENJOY MOTHERHOOD tHEY ARE SUCH A BURDEN mY hUSBAND IS ON THE ROAD ALL THE TIME TO FEED US AND NO CHURCH FAMILY SO i M oNE oF tHOSE MAYBE SOMEDAY TRYING TO SEE THE GOOD IN ALL THIS;
Dear Barbara, Pray that the Lord will give you the strength to love Him and to love your children. I am praying for you. I encourage you and your husband to reach out to the kind people at Bethlehem Baptist — http://www.hopeingod.org/ministries/care-/-help — ask them for help and encouragement. ~Yuan