This past week, two men who pastor churches – one a veteran, the other in his first years – sent out information about their children. The little girl’s multiple issues are still a mystery, but probably genetic in nature. The little boy has an unknown and as yet undiagnosed issue that causes him to vomit multiple times a day.
Both men (and their wives) want answers, and are actively pursuing answers. Yet both are living with a serenity in the sovereignty of God that is beautiful and convicting.
Paul Tautges, the father of the little girl, wrote this on his blog last November:
Biblical faith does not require answers. Our daughter’s neurologist has gone out of his way to request a secondary funding source (genetic array costs a minimum of $20,000) not because we cannot live without answers, or because our faith in God is threatened. On the contrary, our faith in the sovereignty and goodness of God is surer than ever. Our confidence in Christ and the eternal hope of the gospel is richer now than if our lives had been free from having children with physical disabilities.
Trusting God doesn’t mean we are passive. On the contrary, having the foundation that God will strengthen us for the task he has given provides impetus to act!
We’ve all been there at some point – not knowing what is really going on in our children. Dianne repeated something last night we’ve said to each other a hundred times: not knowing is much harder than knowing, even when the knowing is devastating.
So I pray for these families, that God would grant them the knowledge that would help them serve their children. I know they are praying earnestly for it!
And if he chooses not to reveal it, we can still rest in this: God knows it all, he is the eternal source of love, he designed those children with a purpose, and nothing can stop him, for his glory and for our good.
For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39 ESV