Mid-afternoon Tuesday at the Conference for Pastors I checked on some donation numbers and was discouraged at the lack of progress on a campaign we are running. I definitely had a grumbling heart.
As I looked at those numbers and considered next steps, I’m told someone wants to see me.
I’m introduced to a wonderful, God-centered man. He’s going through deep waters in his children and grandchildren – disability, terminal illness, hardship upon hardship. But he also had a sweet confidence that God is, in fact, sovereign and good. He was praising God for all the good he was seeing in the midst of so much difficulty. He was the very example of ‘as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing.’
He had heard through some friends of mine that I had experienced some similar things and wanted to meet me.
Two things came to mind after we talked and prayed together:
- How foolish I was to grumble, which is nothing more than disbelief. God knows what we need financially; he will help us and will provide what we need.
- In the very second I was grumbling, he was bringing me a brother who would point me back to the source of all comfort and grace.
I was overwhelmed with gratitude after talking with this brother and deeply, deeply blessed. I don’t deserve such mercy or grace. I deserved discipline, but God chose instead to point me back to him. I am very grateful that God extended it so kindly!