A helpful word on disability, disease and death from Christmas 1983.
As Pastor John has said when preparing to read his Advent Poems, ‘it did not happen this way, but it could have.’
Titled simply, “Jesus.”
“Maria?” “Yes, my love, I’m here.”
“It hurts, O God, it hurts! I fear
The worst for me tonight.” “Rest now
Dear Joseph, God will not allow
Your faith more pain than it can bear.”
“Maria, are the children there?”
“The little ones have gone to stay
With Zechariah for the day.
The eldest keeps his vigil still,
And prays for hours on the hill
Behind the house. He’s fasted for
A week now, Joseph, since before
The priest imposed the quarantine.
He loves you very much.” “I’ve seen
His love. I thought two years ago
When we missed him in Jericho
And had to search Jerusalem
In anger, ready to condemn,
That he would be a callous lad,
But now at fourteen years the glad
And unassuming boy, who reads
The Torah late at night and pleads
For me in prayer, has run the shop
For these two years without a stop,
While I lie here and rot with some
Unknown disease. I’ve heard him hum
A Psalm of David as he changed
My stinking clothes and then arranged
My mat and sat me up to drink
Some broth that he had made. I think
That he’s the greatest joy I’ve had,
Maria, though I’m not his dad.”
“Mine, too, dear Joseph. It’s as though
He bears it all. The children go
To him and cry when I am weak.
He sits them down and helps them seek
Their comfort in the covenants.
He wins complete obedience
For me, and brightens every hour.
He has a strange and winsome power.”
“Maria, do you think that he
Could come and lay his hand on me
And use the power to make me well?
Sometimes I feel like I’m in hell
With these blind eyes and fiery pain.
And worst for me is all the strain
Of seven children you must bear.
Could he not heal me with his prayer?”
“He’s praying now up on the hill.”
“What does he pray? What is his will
For me?” “Pure love, my husband, love.”
“And what is this pure thing made of
If not a father’s health?… Forgive
Me, my Maria, as I live
I love the boy. But if the word
The angel spoke is true, we’ve heard
Messiah in our home for years.
And don’t the prophets say that tears
Will all be wiped away when he
Appears: the blinded eyes shall see,
The deaf shall hear, the lame shall leap
The dumb shall sing and all who weep
Will shout for joy? And should I quell
The hope that he could make me well?”
“I asked him last week, when the priest
Had left, if he could not at least
Relieve your pain, or give you sight,
Or help you sleep well through the night.”
“What did he say?” “He said in sum,
‘Tell Dad, my hour’s not yet come.
The timing of the Lord of Host
Will make a widow and a ghost.'”
“Strange recompense for nurturing
The Son of God, the mighty King!”
“O Joseph, we have seen too much
Of God and grace to doubt that such
A Sovereign plans but for our good,
For he can heal and heal he would
If it were best.” “What does he pray
Up there, Maria? Did he say?”
“He didn’t mention much detail,
But only that your faith not fail.
He says there’s something worse than death,
And loss of faith, not loss of breath,
Is what he fights. He’s gotten slim
From fasting.” “Would you please fetch him?
I want to say goodbye.” “I know
The place; I’ll hurry now and go.”
“Your father wants to see you, son;
I think his life is almost done.
Come, hasten with me to his bed.”
“He’s here, my love, beside your head.”
“I heard you in the synagogue
Once say that there’s an epilogue
To life. And then you looked at me.
You knew. Already you could see
The last short chapter of my days:
The gathering dark and distant rays
Of dawn. And now I thank you, son,
That you fought for my faith and won.
Your intercession on the slope,
Your fasting and your love gave hope.
Nor do I doubt that you and I
Will meet again with God on high.
I bless the night that you were born!
May all the world that night adorn.
Maria, come, light him a flame.
Though darkness gathers, praise his Name!”
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2009 Year in Review
Posted in commentary on December 31, 2009| 4 Comments »
We’ve been at this blog for more than a year and it has changed significantly in that time, particularly when we moved to WordPress and re-branded as The Works of God in September.
I want to publicly thank Abraham Piper, the very talented web content editor for Desiring God and the creator of 22 Words, one of the best personal blogs you will find. He recommended many of the changes you have seen over the past year. I was frequently slow to make the changes he suggested, but I have always been glad once I have done so. Maybe I’ll move a little faster when he suggests things in 2010.
I will continue to trust God to provide the content on a regular basis. I don’t think a whole lot about ‘traffic’ to the site. It should surprise no one that when Pastor John tweets about The Works of God, traffic increases substantially. That is also the case when Noel Piper tweets about us.
The posts I labored over the most usually received the least amount of traffic. Yet a few of those lesser-viewed posts seemed to have greater impact on specific individuals, sometimes months later. I’m grateful God works like that.
I’m also grateful for friends who regularly feed me content. God is very kind to me in the many relationships he’s given because of a common interest in disability, the Bible and God’s sovereignty.
So, to close the year, here are the top five most-read posts on the Works of God, along with one more from our old blog on Webjam:
5. Disability, Disease and Treasuring God
4. Year-end Reminders of Why I Love Bethlehem
3. A Young Man’s Testimony to Suffering and the Sovereignty of God (Lord willing, this will end up on the top 5 next year as well. Joe’s testimony is worth reading multiple times. I know it will be posted again.)
2. Wave Four: The Disability Community Fills in the Grave
1. Helpful Things: Pastors Who Love Their People
The post that received the most traffic over the past year came while we were still on Webjam:
When Do We Get to Talk About the Other Consequences of Abortion, Mr. President?
As we end 2009, to God all the glory! May he allow us another year to make much of him and his sovereignty and goodness over disability and disease and suffering.
Happy New Year Everyone! Jesus is King!
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